Blunt of Laughter

Always harder when it is on the other foot eehhh.......

Well today was yet a reminder once again that I'm fat. Who woulda thunk it? So get to church and my pastor's wife tells me she has a picture of me that was taken last year at her nieces bridal shower. By the tone of her daughters and her laughter I could tell it probably wasn't flattering. Then she said she was thinking of posting it on facebook and seeing as I wasn't on her friends list I wouldn't know (giggle giggle) I proceeded to tell her I'm not on her friends list because she hasn't requested so. Then I told her how I threaten my daughters if they post ugly pictures of me I will delete them. Too bad cause I was feeling pretty good up until that point this morning.

I guess that kinda crap bothers you coming from skinny people.
So one would ask "why do you post pictures of other fat people?
My answer would be to remind myself that I am fat too, and to finally once and for all get healthy.

I guess the real kicker was this last summer when I went back to Haiti for a friends wedding. I am not fond of the heat there as I don't handle it well. And being overweight does not help. So we get to the chapel and lo and behold see people I haven't seen in two years. Another lovely pastor's wife looked me right in the eye and laughed and told me I got fatter. I was so embarrassed. I vowed right then I would step back into the country to minister until I was at a healthy weight.

So my prayer is that I can overcome.

Am I Stalling or is it Tom's Fault?

Kinda confused a little woke up again with not much of a loss. Only .2 lost. I am drinking water and hot tea. Peeing constantly so its not my water intake. Not cheating and even have discontinued the melba toast. So. What the heck. Not discouraged I just miss the high of seeing at least 1 pound lost. So maybe its just TOM. Either way it sucks. Food is tasting bland no matter what I fix. I am feeling aching and getting tired easily last few days. I need a pick me up. Brandi says Tequila. lol Ooops not on the approved list of foods. Nap is in store.

Who says fat isnt sexy :)

Fall Cleaning

Decided I needed to clean out the pantry of unnecessary item's. Yikes had some stuff in there that needed to be thrown out last year. Wow. I am a clean freak except for closet's they tend to be a catch all. Frued would have a hay day with me. From all accounts my house is neat as a pin until you open my closets. Ask my daughter she thinks Im anal about house cleaning. Well 4 bags of trash later its done. Woke up to a gain of .2 pounds I freaked. What the heck. Its 9 days :( So took my shot went back to bed that was at 6 am which is my regular shot time. Whew woke up and weighed again. I think I believe this reading better 14.2 pounds. Much much better amazing what 3 more hours of sleep will do. Called my Dr. and asked about what to do about excercising and the fact that my little friend started. She advised to continue shots unless headaches start and I am not thinking clearly. As far as excercising she said light. But after advice from so many I will wait until Im on round 3.

Craving What He is Eating

So I believe I told him just yesterday I was craving popcorn, smothered in butter and guess what he is making? Ask's me if it would bother me if he did? What am I supposed to say? Yes. Make everyone else a prisoner to my diet. Does anyone ever feel like the people around them are trying to sabotage what you are doing or is it just what it is? So do they think after 8 days I am super woman. And a small chicken finger and an apple twice a day is satisfying to the soul much less the palette. Seriously why dont you try it for one meal grrrrrr. Ok that is my rant!

Move Your Ass

So yes I need to do that. I have an office job that requires most of all sitting at the computer with the bouts of filing and and such. 8-10 hours at a desk. Hmmm not good for promoting a healthy body ehh. Wondering what to do as far as an exercise program. Have the treadmill and I freaking hate it. Boring. I sear watching ice melt is more fun. Thought about Pilate's, cause Minnie Driver's body really rocked after doing that. I know I need to do cardio for so many reasons. I have the beach body videos and there ya go again I'm not that freaking coordinated. Seriously people I fell out of a boat and it wasn't moving and no I wasn't drinking. I'm just fabulous like that. .

13.6 pounds off so far as this mornings weigh in

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So I need to get my ass a moving, cause I don't want her hanging to my knees soon.
Project this weekend start exercising.

And on a funny note. I am seeing things I haven't seen in awhile , well at least without straining myself lol. I crack myself up.

Lunch = was pretty awesome. Cubed chicken and cubed celery stir fry. Lots of spices and some crunch so you actually feel like your eating. Baked apple which I only ate half. I got full. Is this a sign my stomach is shrinking? One would hope.

Warning not suitable for everyone. Some serious big booty dancing. But very funny. Hey at least there butt's are exercising. Like the song it might be my new theme song lol

Super *itch

I am having major mood swings, not sure why. I swear I am bipolar this week. Have highs then super bitch comes out. Most times I am not hungry. But I do notice that I need to be feed in a timely manner. Lunch at 11:30 and dinner between 5 and 6. If I don't eat close to that time that's when SHE comes out lol.Not sure if its psychological or if it is physical.But it happens.

Made some hot mustard today to go with some cabbage, discovered that's one way to get water down me lol. Next time wont use so much :P. Well I was totally confused about what phase I was in but now I know I'm in Round 1 phase two.

I cant wait until I start running into people I ha vent seen in awhile and they notice the weight loss. Attention hoe, NO just is easier for those people to notice that the ones that are actually around you all the time. I don't think that's wrong to want people to notice, cause they sure as heck noticed when I got fatter.

So 8Th day and 12.2 pounds lost. I assume that an average of 1.5 pounds a day is normal on HCG. Hope its not on the low side of average.

Ok have to post a pic.....Looks like somebody is having a good time :)



I dont know if anyone has ever checked out Leonard Nimoy's Full Body Project. It is quite interesting. I am glad for anyone who is happy in there own skin. Im just tired of living my life not happy in mine.

Ok warning on this video. Not suitable for everyone. Major man boobs but hey I wanted something for the blog lol.

It Feels So Good

Well for a little humor. Roll one has become two smaller rolls. Most of the 16 inches have come off my hips. That was a total of 3 from the hips. Average loss was .5 inches other places. And nope didn't taunt the tape just left it like it was supposed too,wanted as accurate as possible. A funny thing but nice thing is I could now moon you without having to unzip my pants lol. But that is only if you really deserved it. Discovered recently you cant repeat items you ate earlier in the day. So tonight I tried to brainstorm dinner. So I made an attempt at making orange chicken which ended up pretty good. Spices used ginger root, garlic and onion powder, red pepper flakes juice from a 1/4 each of a lemon and orange.3 packets of Stevia. Cider vinegar and cubed chicken cooked with a cup of water. Sauteed until chicken was done and served on a bed of spinach. Very yummy. Will repeat that again. Was very pretty too. But my battery was too dead to take a pic and load and I wanted to eat it. I will take a picture later as my daughter said I should. Cant wait until she is on it so she can come up with the recipes.

Pounds and Inches

Woke up for my usual meeting with the scale. OOOOPS have to pee first. That's the first thing to do after waking up and it couldn't hurt because I think I tinkled 32 ounces(seriously it felt like that) lol. Only a 1/2 pound lost but that's OK. Cause to date its 10.5 :) so I'm smiling. I knew it was the day to get that blessed tape measure out. I had to crack up because on the chart last week I hadn't noticed until I got to the bottom it had a section for Roll 1 & Roll 2. Well since we are all being honest here I have to admit I did measure roll one as there was no roll 2. It cracked me up. Ah the thought. But really it made sense because that area really wasn't on the normal spots to measure. And well after 4 children you get the idea :(

It wasn't really convenient for me to measure this morning even though I'm getting up a half hour earlier since I started the HCG for work to do everything. So I waited until tonight.

Drum Roll Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16 inches overall lost. That totally rocked my night

Especially after feeling cranky and pissy cause I'm getting "the friend soon" and because an employee totally ticked me off. So I'm feeling pretty good at moment. Went shopping which was a bore, made it out of walmart because well not much to buy on the 500 vlcd lol. Did spend alot of time buying new flavors of tea. MMMMM Mint Tea. Taste yumm. Searching for a way to make orange chicken for dinner tonight. Bon Apetite Friends.

Smile make people wonder what you are up too................

10 Pounds to Date

Yippie ten pounds to date.
Today was a mix of exhilaration at loosing the ten pounds but had some major "I want to eat feelings". Don't know if its cause I didn't drink as much liquid as I was very busy doing paperwork. Or what it was. But I have noticed it is almost necessary to eat at a regular time. It might be a mind thing I don't know. But I had to take a nap or else I was going to eat. And I didn't want to before I had to fix the families meal(spaghetti, meat sauce, garlic toast).
My daughter ( <- click the link )will be starting the HCG plan. Im excited for her too. Unfortunately she takes after her momma in some ways. Holds her weight in same areas. But she doesnt have alot to loose. She is doing the research and getting excited. Next week she starts :)

So got my answer on injection sites. Seems Im supposed to inject into the fatty area. Well thats not going to be a problem(laughing)


Some motivational posters :P



These look better on women :)

Nothing Tastes as Good as Skinny Feels

I heard that in another group and wow it is so true. I have been craving buttery popcorn like crazy. It just sounds good. Im not hungry most of the time. I think the HCG shots help with the hunger. I do have some aching in my rib area and dont know if that is a result of anything or maybe just cause its cold here in Missouri.

I woke up to a nice surprise on the scale. 10# lost total as of this morning. Pretty excited about that.

Husband has been repeating very negative stuff about everything I cant do.

"Oh you can have your Italian Christmas Eve with the kids" or "we wont be able to go to Italy next year cause you wont be able to eat"

But my daughter and I did the figures and by then I can do another round of the HCG injections and start on Christmas Eve and that will start my loading phase. So a big raspberry to him. I will have my cake and eat it too lol. Its not cake I will want but a piece of lasagna. Im the bomb with my Italian heritage and my lasagne.

Why when people know you are trying to change YOUR lifestyle they think they have to remind you all the things you cant do. How about lets talk about all the stuff maybe I will be able to do. Hmmmm theres a thought.

So my mantra will be from now on "Nothing Tastes as Good as Skinny Feels"
and looking forward to all the things I can do and not limit myself to what I cant do.

O and buttery popcorn with salt does sound yummy still but upside my package of Grissini breadsticks should be arriving soon......Whoot!