Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Another Day :) and TMI

Upping my dosage seems to be helping overall. Had a 2.2 loss since yesterday. Did the deed and was told I was getting bony in a few spots. LMBO. Asked if he got hurt lol I always said you cant break a big girl when it comes to that :P
I have been pretty energetic in the mornings. Not sure if its because of the double dose I take early or what. But it helps with end of the year paperwork. Rearranged my office. So yeah for me.
Well that's all for now.
Seeing as I haven't posted a funny in awhile here goes:

Monday, December 28, 2009

Back in the Saddle Again

Woke up with a 4.2 loss. So in 2 days almost lost all of that cheating weight. Cant wait to start dropping some real pounds. I upped my dosage to help stave off hunger for the first week. Then Ill probably take the just one shot. I will see how it goes and try and isten to my body. Seriously have drank enough water to float a small boat.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Things I Have Learned Off Protocol

One thing I have learned is that going off protocol can quickly bring disasterous results and quickly. Secondly I feel so much more better while on protocol and while not deviating. Thirdly water is very important. It helps stave off hunger and helps the HCG do its thing. Like flush the fat out. Amazingly I like life better on protocol. Going one week off of protocol had me gaining the ten pounds I lost on being on round two for two weeks. So after getting my crap together and putting to rest again for another year the grieving of not having my daughter with me. I am ready to get er done :)I cant wait to use my bike. I wish it wasnt raining and snowing.

Friday, December 25, 2009

New Start Tomorrow

Well after a week of totally blowing it I will start back on the injections and the 500 calorie diet tomorrow. I think I can do it now that I am more emotionally stable again. I am afraid to get on the scale though. My bodily functions are so out of whack. I had to take ex lax two days in a row so ya what fun. Anywho I am ready. Wish me luck.
I had a great Christmas. I got a touring bike. 21 speed. Whoot. O and a fountain for my living room. Great day.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Totally Off Track

Well today has been my third day of being totally off track. I stopped taking the injections yesterday because I have totally blown it. Thinking maybe starting another round on the anniversarry of my daughters death was a very bad idea. I thought I would be fine. Its been over 10 years but no. Amazing how you think you can handle something but under the surface stuff just wants to explode. So I plaaned an interruption anyway for christmas eve and day. Maybe after the holiday I can focus and not be bogged down with grief. I hate that I was weak and I am very dissappointed in myself. I really wanted to drop another 20 pounds. I will start fresh again New Years or sooner. God I hope I dont pack on the pounds. Just feeling a little lost and dont really care at the moment. Praying for a break and to regain my composure.

Thursday, December 17, 2009


Well down a whole whopping.4 UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! So frustrating. I dont believe tommorow will be better cause yep I went off protocol of a sorts. Joined mu husband and a friend to pick up materials and also got a pedicure and manicure. So not only did I use products off protocol but also they went out for mexican. I ordered a small fajita lunch and ate the onions and the beef. I believe by the looks of it I probably ate more protein than I should have.

I guess there are worse things to cheat on. Didnt eat any tortillas but I am sure I will pay dearly for this.

And all that after I was told by someone that I look amazing!


Tuesday, December 15, 2009

1st Day of Week 3 Round 2

Well apple day was a success. Lost two pounds. Hope this starts things again. This day begins week 3 hope I can loose at least 7 pounds before my interruption on the holidays. Not fretting too much cause I am thankful for getting this far. Tommorow will be stressful as I will have to shop and not be in the protection of my own office and home ugh! Have to shop for the groceries for the xmas party for my employees. Then the fun will be of cooking all that yummy mexican food I cant eat. O well. Heres to a smaller butt lol.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Lessons Learned

Ok didnt cheat but saw a gain of .8. What did I do.
Maybe it was the fact that I tanned saturday. Yep sure did. Got tired of my pasty white skin and put my butt in my tanning bed. My reasoning was surely it couldnt be THAT bad. I read where it does make your body have a chemical reaction. OK so DR. S. does know what he was talking about. Sure I got a little color but I also saw a gain and nothing foreign entered these lips.
Like I said Lesson Learned. Wont do that again.
So to make up for my stupidity I am doing an apple day
See what that brings tommorow.
Four apples eaten Blah!
Last time I did this was during a stall and I lost 3 pounds and started losing again. Crossing fingers and going to bed early

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Just for Fun

1. What was the highlight of your week?
Reaching my 30lb loss

2. Whose car were you in last?
My Tahoe

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Tonight :)

4. What color shirt are you wearing?

5. How long is your hair?
Shoulder length

6. Are you good looking?

7. Last movie you watched?
A Christmas Carol

8. Who were you with?

9. Last thing you ate?
Cucumbers and chicken

10. Last thing you drank?
Dasani Water

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
Long time

12. Who came over last?

13. Are you happy right now?

14. What did you say last?
Dont remeber

15. Where is your phone?
On side table

16. What color are your eyes?
Blackish brown

17. Are you left-handed?

18. Spell your name without vowels:

19. Do you have any pets?
Yes An Alaskan Husky

20. Favorite Vacation?
This coming spring trip

21. What do you dislike currently?

22. What are you listening to?
Giants football game

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
Chcolate but cant have it

24. What is your favorite scent?

25. Who makes you happiest?
Family and Friends

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?

27. When is your birthday?
January 30th

28. Who has the same phone as you?
Tiffany, Nick

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?

30. Do you read your horoscope?

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Online, JcPenny

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
Great LA colored it

33. Do you bite your nails?

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?

36. Myspace or facebook?

37. How fast have you driven a car?

38. Have you ever smoked?

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?

40. Do you have Verizon?

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?

42. Do you have any hidden talents?

43. Favorite Song?
Too many. But "Who AM I" is a favorite

44. Do you like to sing at all?

45. Dream Job?
No job

46. Where does most of your family live?

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I have 1 sister 3 brothers

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Yes very

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
Time to weigh

50. Do you drink?

51. Know any other languages?
A little french

52. Ever write a coded message?

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?

54. Do you have any children?
Yes 4

55. Did you take a nap today?
Yes whoo hoo

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
Not sure

57. Ever met anyone famous before?

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
No thanks

59. Any Pet Peeves?
Yea a few, people who cant drive and self righteous persons to name two

60. Are you multitasking right now?

61. Do you like Britany Spears?

62. What is your least favorite chore?

63. Last place you drove your car?

64. Ever been out of the country?
Yes Haiti numerous times

65. Where were you born?
New York

66. Could you handle being in the military?

67. What is your average cell phone bill?

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
Work tommorow

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Few days ago

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
About 30 now. I just recently gave a bunch of stuff away

71. Are your toes always painted?
No but they will be this week

72. How many piercings do you have?

73. What are you doing today?
Church and getting hair colored, laundry

74. Have you ever been gambling?
Yes once

75. When is the last time you updated your page?

76. Do you like rollercoasters?

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?

79. Last thing you cooked?
Fried chicken for my men and baked chicken and cucumbers for me

80. How's the weather?

81. Do you e-mail?

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Send my husband some sexy pictures lol

83. Last time you were sick?
Long time

84. What states have you lived in?
New York, Pennsylvania and Missouri

85. Do you wish you could move?

87. What is your dream car?
A Benz

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?

90. Are you happy with your life?

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Measurements 46.5 Inches Lost (Released lol)

Measured and I havent since I was in middle of p3. Happily I have lost an additional nine inches. Total since on HCG 46.5 inches. Not bad for 2.5 months. This totally makes it worth it. I got a wow from a girlfriend I only see every couple of weeks. I said "can you really notice" she said omg yes

I receieved my smart carb bread. Its in the freezer waiting for p3 and p4. Cant wait.

Needed that pick me up.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Emotional Eating

This time of year is very difficult as I know it is for alot of people. 11 years ago this time of year I was expecting to deliver a healthy baby girl. I developed toximina and was put into the hospital repeatedly. In the end I delivered a full term stillborn little girl. Her birth day is December 19th. Sounds like a good reason to emotionally eat. I can feel the pangs of wanting to every now and then along with the wanting to just crawl into bed and not come out.
But just like 11 years ago I go about the daily duties of preparing for the holidays all the while grieving silently.
I dont sorrow like most people who have no hope because I do believe she is alive with my Lord. But it doesnt change the fact that she is not with me.

On a lighter note:
The things I would like to eat emotionally are a big fat bacon cheeseburger and fries. Maybe some butter pecan ice cream and lets see some chinese food would really hit the spot.

Did go shopping for christmas but decided to try and some clothes. Ya I went and bought a skinnier pair of jeans that I cant get into yet but will after this round. Good reason not to cheat. And a pretty silver shiny sweater for the christmas party

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Party TIme

Down 32 pounds this morning. Actually 32.8 pounds. Very very happy. Its so hard to do Christmas shopping and all the temptation out there. Its a whole lot easier just staying in my office or home doing the usual. But out there in the hustle and bustle and all the yummy smells. OMG makes you just want to eat something yummy. Poor husband we cant go out and eat while Im on round 2. We went shopping yesterday and he said if I didn't mind he was going to get something to eat. Sure honey go feed your face while I cant feed mine. HMMMMM lol. Actually I just try and shrug it off. keep busy. Try and keep mind off food. Not looking forward to holiday. I do all the cooking. Christmas eve wil be Italian. Lasagne cheesecake etc. Christmas day turkey and everything else. I might do an interruption On that day. Not sure. I need to do some investigating. If it will harm me I wont if I can get by with just a little stall I will. Decisions decisions.

Party TIme

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

2 More Pounds Yippie

Down 2 pounds since yesterday. Day before was only .4 cause TOM showed up. Im a happy camper. ONly a half pound shy of losing 30 pounds and Im really excited. I need to do my measurements :) Yesterday was depressing I felt very hugry emotionally I think. So I went to bed at 6:30. I will keep you posted :P

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Happy Camper

Happy camper. 2.4 pounds lost since yesterday. Husband came home since being gone for a week. So I got some needed excercise lol

Just love getting up and getting on
that scale especially when it is nice to me.

I dont know if anyone else on this group has tried it but I ordered some more Julian Bread. It has only 1 net carb and is protocol safe. It didnt affect my weight on p3 but I only had it like 2 times a week. It is great toasted.

Its not cheap but worth it.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Down 4.8 Pounds Load Weight Almost Gone

Woke up to a 2.8 pound loss whoot! Happy camper my load day weight is almost gone. Well went shopping today and spent a good part of the day pulling my pants up. Resorted to folding the top part over so I wouldnt have to keep hiking them up. I guess there could be worse things. I refuse to have a muffin top so I will wait to buy some new jeans when they are totally unwearable. Went shopping trying to find an outfit for our company christmas party. When I lost the 25 pounds I decided to give away my fat girls clothes. I could still fit into some but I refuse to wear them again. They reminded me of my fat frumpy OLD self. So not going there. Nope nada not happening. So now I need something nice so I look hott infront of all the employees wives.

I crack myself up seriously. I wouldnt do that.

I went christmas shopping in the big town and couldnt bring any food, well cause I forgot my apple but bought some water.

Very tempted. McDonalds was beckoning me bit I resisted. Instead at 4 pm I stopped at walmart to get groceries and found some precooked fajita meat and bought some apples and my favorite water Dasani!. Ate that chicken in the car along with my apple. I was hungry

Looking forward to seeing what the scale does since I only had the equivelant of one meal on the protocol. Seeing if that does anything different on the scale.

Wonder if anyone has fasted on the HCG?

Friday, December 4, 2009

Day 2 of VLCD

Yes yesterday was hard. I am so stinking fickle. First I dont want it then I do. Kinda sounds like my sex life.

Thankfully I found a site that has a accepted salad dressing for p2 of the protocol. Very yummy. Its a god send for sure. Here is link: Pounds and Inches Away
It will make plain spinach and greens awesome and tolerable.

So I had a great loss of 2.2 pounds. ...........

Breakfast: apple

Lunch: chicken and onions stir fried with water lol

Dinner: chicken on a large bed of raw spinach with pounds and inches away dressing.

I did not get all my water in so that is something I have to work on today.

Im taking care of a recovering puppy and trying to catch up on paperwork. Husbands out of town and running two companies. So no stress there

Have a great day Losers ! I crack myself up. You too maintainers!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

R2 P2 D1 of VLCD

Woke up with exactly a 5 pound gain for load days. Yikes hope thats normal. Actually looking forward to not eating. Back on the bottle again lol. Water bottle that is. Wish me lots of luck.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

R2 D2 P1

Here piggy piggy. I swear that how I feel. Like a big fat pig. Load days arent all they are cracked up to be.
So here is the list of foods consumed:
Snickers bar
8 Crab Rangoon
Hot Wings
Baked Potato
Starbucks Mocha Frapuccino
Deesnt seem like much on paper but I feel like poop. Someone run the totals for me lol. Well forgot to weigh this morning so a little scared to see how much of a gain I will have after load says. Wondering what the average gain is on round 2?

Goodnight :P

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

R2 P1 D1

So this loading(aka gorging days) are difficult. Why in the world when you can eat you dont want too. Crazy. So gorge day is here. Well Ive had two cheeseburgers some Mexican food a few pieces of candy and I guess I should eat something really yummy and full of fat before I go to bed. Go figure lol.