Friday, October 28, 2011


Have to remind myself of this.
Food for the day done. Water consumed. Gonna enjoy my weekend.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Update. Square One. No restriction!

Recently had struggles with lap band knowing I was too tight.
Too many episodes of not keeping food down, Not able to eat but a few bites at a time. Not even a
a 1/2 c of food. So after puking up water cause it wouldnt go down I made that appointment for an unfill. I was told on the last fill to just wait it out. They thought I irritated my opening with supplements ugh! Then come to find out I was too tight. Tight enough that even liquid was making my pouch dilate over my band slightly.
Not good at all. Result taking out 3 cc of fluid and leaving me wide open.

Im just plugging along trying to work this band.

Thursday, September 29, 2011


Ive been reading where it takes 21 days to form a habit.
I guess that would include both good and bad habits. Mine that I am attempting to form is of course the exercise habit. Ive done well so far. Day three lol I did do three miles today though I had to split it in twp sessions. I tried to walk around lunch time but the sun was burning my recently chemically peeled face. Not good. S0 I did one then after dinner did two more. Score! Felt accomplished. Now 18 more days of some sort of physical exercise. After dinner and exercise I updated my fitness pal and it said I was 1014 calories short for food intake. Not good cause you have to eat to lose weight. Ate a protein bar and ended up only having 700 calories after taking off what was burned during exercise. Trying to figure this whole band thing out. Footnote stupid scale hasnt moved hardly at all last few weeks and is making me pissy :(

Tuesday, September 27, 2011


On Monday the 19th I had a fill which brought me up to 6 cc. It has been over a week and I still am not able to eat solid foods at every meal. I am happy to report I have a good sense of restriction. That is so nice. What I dont like is all the noise I am making even over liquids. We have a home group once a month and I had to come out of the closet about WLS. I was making so much racket I had to tell. I had to admit that it was the one thing I could not control and it surprised everyone that I was worried about what people would think cause everyone knows I have a "I dont give a crap attitude" about what people say about me. I confessed it was embarrassing cause I am such a control freak and it embarrassed me that this was one thing I let control me.

My nutritionist is on a HCG kick and suggested I go on it for a month. She said I could easily reach 200 pounds by Christmas. I am tempted and she believes I wont struggle as much as I did before cause what she has is pharmaceutical strength. Im going to go for the consultation and check it out. Upside is Im already used to doing so little food that should be a breeze.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Diet or Lifestyle?

Question I saw on Profwlsworks youtube, Are you on a diet or is is this a lifestyle?

I can honestly say right now it has been a diet. I NEED to make this a lifestyle.
What does that require? A definite conscious mind change.

Positive things Im doing. One is to find something positive about myself everyday. Trying to focus on eating quality foods. Only trying to eat when Im hungry. But not get to the point where Im so hungry that I reach for something quick and inevitably bad for me. I have increased my workouts. Out of 7 days I have really busted my a$$ for three with aerobics( yes needs to be 5 but life gets in the way). Wearing my Kutting Weight Sweat Suit. OMG makes you really sweat. I also purchased Bali Thigh Slimmer Belts. I have been using them on my fat arms. Mind you I never sweat on my arms. These babies make my arms sweat. I bought them from Amazon.

The Band: I can feel myself being able to eat more than I should, not staying satisfied for as long as I should. Some days I am truly hungry one hour after eating. Not good. Defeats the purpose of the band giving satiety. So scheduled a visit for a fill. Haven't had one in two months and do believe I need one. I dread it also at the same time. As I have difficulty with every fill.

Fighting the comparing my own progress with the progress of others.
I find myself initially rejoicing at others accomplishments but then inwardly resenting and turning it against myself.
Im human. I know others feel the same way but we are all individuals and depending on our age, lifestyle, gene pool all that crap does help determine what and how we respond to the lap band. Yes its a tool and I have to learn how to use it for me.

Lifestyle Reminders

1. Eat 5 times per day. 3 meals 2 snacks

2. Eat only at planned meal times; no grazing.

3. Eat only good quality foods; protein first

4. Eat slowly; chew 20-30 minutes per meal.

5. Keep portion sizes small; 1 cup maximum.

6. Stop eating when you are no longer hungry.

7. No beverages while eating.

8. Drink 64 FO fluids/day ( no cal) in between meals.

9. At least 30 min/day of physical activity.

10. Take multi-vitamin/mineral supplements daily

(copied this from a fellow lapbander)

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Three Weeks AWOL

I have been neglectful on the blogging. Bad girl. Last time I checked in I was having trouble with my fill. That has seemed to taper out. To date have lost 47 pounds. Been banded 4 months so thats about 10+ pounds a month which isnt bad. I have lost an additional 9 inches. I discovered I am not coordinated. Decided to sweat with Richard Simmons. I tell you watching girls that are bigger than me do those moves will kick your butt when you realize how out of shape you are. I have been using my facebook account to keep motivated and accountable as well as myfitnesspal on the net and my phone. I love that site cause you can see the nutrient breakdown of what food you put in your mouth.

I am doing Jenny Craig meals when I fix something for the family that I cannot eat with the band or that just isnt healthy for ME. I can happily say I can fit into a size 18 comfortable. Im thrilled with that.

Just bought my second installment of detox regimen. Im doing a liver detox. Then Ill do a metal detox. I found when I do a detox it helps the pounds release.

Stay on the losing bench my friends :)

Friday, August 19, 2011

BYOC Friday

BYOC Friday!!
It’s Friday so that means.......it’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy!

We answer just a few questions to get to know each other better and to give our blog brains a break!

Copy to your own blog if you wish and ENJOY!

1. How much makeup do you wear daily, how long does it take you and are you loyal to certain brands?

It depends on what or who I am seeing that day. During the week I work at my own office, we own a construction company. Mostly work with men. I usually use a foundation and some lipstick and mascara. If I have meetings with our contracting agency or sub contractors I do a little more primping. Saturdays if I am just staying home and not having visitors I go naked.

2. Repeat question: I’m going to pick a person not knowing your relationship with them (or even if there is one) and you try to describe this person in 5 words/short sentences.

Your oldest paternal aunt.

She is shy, but a very sweet person.

3. Tell me about your first real kiss and how old you were.
Unfortunately I cant remember this as my childhood sucked! I do remember losing my virginity and even younger losing my innocence :(

4. If I gave you $1000.00 and told you that you had to give it to a charity – which charity would you choose and why?

Probably my own. We are building a school in Haiti.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blog land and in real life.

Blog land: Blog land I have been abscent and I plan on doing all my catching up this weekend.

Real life: Busy busy busy. My grandson started school so I hope to have some me time to really get in gear with the physical activity.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

On The Road

Discovered that I am not good with eating on the road with this band. Especially when I cant pick the places to eat. I need to stick with salad bars at least I can pick and choose. Al a Ca-rte ordering is expensive. I wasn't able to weigh in but I dont think it will be good. I also got TOM and of course its only been two weeks since it wash here the last time. I started having a protein shake last two mornings it has 50'gs of protein since Im not eating enough. Also I am determined to exercise every day as I have let other things get in the way. Im just not doing good and I need to do better. I am getting discouraged cause it is so slow.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

The Waiting Game

I called in to get a slight unfill as I got filled to 5 cc two weeks ago. I have not gone one day problem free. Inevitably something gets stuck no mater how much I chew. Saturday was the icing on the cake with the uncontrollable vomit episode. My nurse practitioner is gone until the 16th and I would have to drive 3 hours for an unfill. They had a wls physician call me and after much discussion he decided MAYBE it wasn't a prolapse but irritation cause of the capsules and prescription pill I take. When he said it sound like a prolapse I almost panicked. I don't ant this to fail and I don't want to have it taken out. So Im babying it and eating soft foods. My unfill is scheduled on the 17th. Wish me luck.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Scale Ho= Guilt as Charged!

Have had a hard time since my last fill. Some days Im so tight I can barely get one meal in without a problem. Yesterday we went for Thai food. It was my first time. It was so good. Fresh vegetables lots of spice. I was so tight couldnt get much ate. On the way to our hotel ten minutes into the ride I had to make them pull over cause I got sick. So embarrassing in front of my friends puking my guts up.

My good guy pal came out to give me a Kleenex. My husband of course stayed in the car. Weak kneed guy. He cant even stand the gurgling sounds I have been making with meals. Not sure if this is normal or not.
Dont know if I need an unfill. I dread the fills I hate to keep going back and forth on this.

Only lost a pound this week but thats better than nothing. Would have expected more because of not eating much but all that does is make your body want to hold onto it even more :(

Friday, July 29, 2011

Fridays BYOC

Copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire! Enjoy!

1. Sun or rain? Roses or tulips? Romantic movie or comedy?
Rain. Makes me want to snuggle with that someone special. Tulips I think are perfect. Roses overdone. Romantic movie. Im not much for movies that make no sense at all.

2. I’ve been sick lately and haven’t eaten in two days – except for ice cream…which leads me to ask – what’s your favorite ice cream flavor?

Butter pecan :)

3. Are you a door locker – in your house and car?
I lock everything.

4. tell me your “go to remedies” for when you are sick?
Only remedy for me is to sleep and sleep some more. Not much of a pill taker.

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blog land and in real life.

Blogland I have been super lazy. Havent even read much. Life has been so hectic with work and personal. Heat is making us all bitchy. Ive barely made it on here to post scale pic. I promise to do better :P

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Weekly Weigh In

Don't know why the image is crooked :(

I had my second fill this past week. I'm tighter than a virgin. I cant eat in the mornings but I am told this is normal. I do get fuller quicker and am staying satisfied longer. That is a good thing because the last week before fill I could have ate a whole horse. I also had the visit which contributed to the massive hunger.
I am slowly losing. No big numbers but they are moving. I'm back down to wearing alot of 18-20 tops. My ass still isn't getting small in comparison to my top regions.
My food choices are better. Im continuing with the Jenny Craig meals only cause of the convenience of having it already prepared. It saves me from reaching for bad choices. It is an expensive program. I will do it as long as I can. I have to mostly choose chicken foods or ground beef items. They are band friendly. Heres to a new week and moving my butt more. Cooler weather please come soon!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011


MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Weekly Weigh In Week 2

Down 2.2 pounds since last sunday morning. Its been a struggle all week. But glad to see a lower number.

BOOBS Challenge

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Monday, July 11, 2011

Day 1 of Cleanse

Got my stash for the 30 day cleanse. One pill in morning and one in the evening for three days. Then after that it will be two in morning then 2 in evening for 30 days. Have to eat clean as possible. Whole foods, plenty of water. After this initial cleanse Im going to do a liver detox and a metal detox. Then my body will be free of toxins. Might as well start fresh as possible.

I am an admitted product junkie.
If its new, smells yummy, looks like I will benefit or just because I heard about if from someone else. I will buy it and try it. I need rehab for this addiction.

I do believe I need to do this to get things moving in right direction. Im also getting rid of household chemicals and going to go green!

Lets see what the husband thinks about it. he already wont eat some healthy stuff I am making. I made a great salad with thinly sliced zucchini cherry tomatoes and red onions with a little garlic seasoning, e.v.o.o, salt, pepper and some feta. It was delicious. He didnt want to even eat it cause the zucchini wasnt fried!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Weekly Weigh In

I dont know if it is water weight or what but ill take it. Down 7 pounds. Boobs Challenge :)

Friday, July 8, 2011


It’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy…a couple of questions we answer to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste to your own blog and enjoy!

1. If you were asked to symbolize yourself as an animal – which animal would you be?

It would definitely be a cat. Cats only want you to mess with them when they want to be messed with. Dont pet us dont interrupt our naps, we want you when we want you lol. If I come rubbing up against you Im in a good mood. Pet me talk to me lol. My family gets this :)

2. Did you ever play an organized sport – with coaches, rules and scoring? Tell us about it.

No only sports I played were in gym, not very coordinated here. Tried out for cheer leading in catholic school and messed up during a routine. I said a curse word and well the nuns didnt want me on the squad lol.

3. When did you start shaving your legs?

As soon as I could. Not that I had any just wanted to be grown up. I am generally not a hairy person and I love it. I cant stand body hair. hairy men freak me out I think its gross. I would love my man to shave everything off.
This is not attractive:

4. When you’re in a crabby – pissy – want to stab everyone you see kind of mood – what do you do to get out of it or do you revel in it?
I used to eat. Now I just go to my room pout, take a nap or just generally take it on the nearest person. Not really but I have been known to blow when pushed. Most people try not to piss me off. Its better fr them that way :)

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in blogland and in real life.

Blog land I try and keep up and read those lap band blogs and comment when I can. I joined the BOOBS challenge see the link to the right.

In real life I finally bought my daughter home from Arkansas she is staying with my mom. I have worked my butt off trying to get caught up with work. I am trying to eat as clean as possible and bought a cleanse I cant wait to take. Drinking my water, taking my vitamins and even rode my bike. I try and ride as long as possible but thats only 15 min and my legs start to tremble and I cant breathe.But I will keep doing it cause I feel like Ive done something.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Focus Off

10 days ago my daughter was in a terrible car accident. We have been struggling with some of her bad choices that she has made the last year. She is a beautiful intelligent woman who has been spiraling out of control without going into it, to say it has been emotionally hard is an understatement. Just when I am needing to totally focus on me I havent been able to.
Today we brought her home but not to our house but my mom's. I just cant have her here. I am raising her son at moment and it is just best that she gets well somewhere else.

Traveling back and forth between here in Missouri & Arkansas has not been good on my new lifestyle. Have made good choices on food for the most part but have not been able to exercise worth a darn. I did get a nice bike ride one day in but that is about it.
No excuses right. Just life sometimes gets in the way.

Tomorrow is end of work week but its going to be a start of new one for me.
I need to get sElFiSh for awhile. make myself a priority. I have been reading Suzanne Sommers "Sexy Forever" its about the toxicity in our lives. Very good health information.
I knew alot of this information before when I was on HCG and went on a detox. Well that
part I will do again. Going back to eating clean and doing a total body detox with

Ill post some results about the cleanse. My body is at a stand still. Not losing and this is supposed to be my honeymoon stage. :(But Im not gaining. Everyone says they can see a difference so must have lost some inches. The cleanse should help with weight loss by cleaning out my system of all toxins that would keep the fat not wanting to release.

I recommend reading her book.


Body Fat

Body Mass Index

Ideal Body Weight

Calories in Drinks

Calories Burned

Cost of Smoking

Cost of Drinking

Monday, July 4, 2011

A Must Read-Shout Out to Beth

Made me think so go and read. My favorite was Willie Wonka & the Chocolate Factory the original movie. Makes me wonder what is behind all that. Analysis anyone?

Check out her blog


Sunday, July 3, 2011

Back to Basics- BOOBS Challenge

Well my first challenge and Im going to go for it.

Click the link you still might have time to get in on it.

Im trying to get my scale pic to load. Unfortunately I never weigh at night and it is showing a 7 pound difference since my last weigh in :(

What do I attribute this to? STRESS for one. (Daughter in hospital) My Starbucks mocha frap might be another but it was only one. And I wasnt eating much else.
Anyhow I am going to get my butt in gear!


It's FRIDAY(sunday) so that means it's BYOC - Bring Your Own Crazy! We answer a couple of questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste and answer in your own blogs if you'd like!! ENJOY!!

Let's stick with the pictures/exercise and shoe topic and post a picture of (or describe) your work out shoes.

Right now they are skechers. I need a new pair.

Again with the summer/hot theme of the week....what does your current swimsuit look like?

I must say it looks good on me :)

Do you lay out, fake bake, sunless spray tan or use tanning lotion?

I do both fake bake and lay out. I love the sun though my dermatologist told me not to tan my face. So I spf 50 on face. My hubby bought me a tanning bed about 4 years ago before a cruise we were going on. He didnt want to go to a tanning salon. So I got a new present lol.

Describe your week in blogland and in real life.
My week in real life this past week has been terrible. I got a phone call that my daughter took a road trip to Arkansas and had a terrible car wreck(she is ok now) The accident was described as a T Bone. A car pulled out in front of them as they were traveling at a high speed. They rolled the vehicle. Luckily they both were able to be pulled out of the car. She was driving and her boyfriend suffered more injuries. At first we were told she had damage to her left frontal lobe of her brain. But after more scans and alot of prayer she was released from the hospital. Her boyfriend suffered severed liver, punctured lung and broken ribs. So a fun emotional week that hasnt been band friendly.

Scale is Up-Mood is Down

Back to Basics Weigh In

Here it is.